If you follow me on Twitter, Instagram, or Snapchat, you’d know that this past weekend I’ve been OBSESSED with the book and movie To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before. It’s a new Netflix movie and a book trilogy by Jenny Han (Author of The Summer I Turned Pretty, for all my other YA book loving girls and boys) and let me tell you, I’m in love. I’m in love with a boy named Peter Kavinsky and I don’t care who knows. Me and my friends have been talking non stop about the book, the movie, and the new man in our lives, Peter. We truly have nothing better to do right now than to obsessed over Peter and the actor who plays him, Noah Centenio. He’s tall dark and handsome, emphasis on the tall, emphasis on the handsome.

Anyways, here are my favorite moments from the movie, spoilers lie ahead, so if you haven’t watched, please take the next hour and forty minutes to both make your life 100% better and 100% worse (because you will fall in love with Peter and you will be upset that he can’t be yours). In no particular order, here are the heart-stopping, gut-wrenchingly-cute, I-kind-of-miss-high-school, moments from Netflix’s To All The Boys I’ve Loved Before

Hot tub makeout scenes make all the girls go “WOAH”

Holy. Fucking. Shit. This scene… It’s equally hot and romantic and cute and I just want to die every time I see it (as in yes, I’ve watched the movie more than once since it came out). You find out that Peter actually likes Lara Jean, and also their makeout session is HOT. My heart quite literally shattered into a million pieces when Noah said he went across town to get LJ her favorite Korean yogurt drink. And then he just pulls her into his lap and my heart shattered again because I was so insanely jealous. KK I need to move on before I have an aneurysm. Not sure why I started this big, the rest of them might not live up to the hype, but I sure hope they do.

Facemasks and confidence boosts

This scene is so coot!! Lucas seems to be one of the guiding lights in Lara Jean’s life, and it’s nice to see her have a good interaction with someone that got one of her letters. Make’s my heart happy that she has someone that she can be half-way honest with. This scene also provided us with the most amazing line: You sexy little rubix cube. I’m honestly still laughing about it.

Peter has a heart of gold and mine is melting

I loved this scene for one because it showed Peter, who is supposed to be the cool guy at school, show some true and real sadness because his dad left his family. I’m so pro guys breaking down their masculinity and showing true emotions, fuck the prison that is masculinity. I think, too, for people that have lost a parent or have had to watch their parents go through a messy divorce, this will resonate with them. I’m very fortunate to have both of my parents, but I can see how this would be relatable to someone who doesn’t. Also, it’s one of the first times you see them interact without it feeling forced or fake. Just an all around great romantic moment.

80’s movie cliches with a 2018 twist

Wow. Just, wow. I lost my shit when this fucking happened. IT’S SO GOD DAMN SMOOTH AND OH MY LANTA I LOVE PETER KAVINSKY. I need a breather. Please enjoy this gif of Peter while I go scream into a pillow because I can’t date Peter Kavinsky.

Okay, I’m back. I needed that. So sorry. Where was I? I’ve been staring at this gif for 20 minutes, send help. How do I print a moveable picture? You can’t? I’m suing the internet. Carrying on. I hope you all know that I’m literally taking my own screenshots from the movie because it legit just came out and there aren’t many online. I did this for you, I watched the movie for a third time for you, for content, for views, you’re welcome. I should be getting paid for all the advertising and PR I’ve been giving this movie.

“You look pretty, I’ll prove it to you”

Ugh, my heart melted yet again. Lara Jean was putting her hair up before the party, and Peter said he liked it better down, and took her scrunchie out, and took a picture of her and made it his phone background. Where do I get a boy to do this? Send help. When he pulls her into the party I DIED. Dead. Deceased. RIP me.

Josh is perfection

Okay, we need to give my man Josh some credit (this is a horrible screenshot, but screenshotting is hard, so sue me). He’s ADORABLE, and he clearly just wants what is in Lara Jeans best interest. He doesn’t like Peter, but he can tell that he’s good for Lara Jean and that he makes her happy, and he tells her to go for it. PRECIOUS!

Lara Jeans’ been getting love notes the whole time !!!!!!!!!!

Are you crying? No? Just me? Okay. Carry on with your life I guess. It started off just to annoy Gen, but the daily notes Peter wrote Lara Jean turned into actual love notes and if that doesn’t make you cry, then you’re a stronger person than I am because I’m over here sobbing into a carton of Ben and Jerrys wishing I had had a cute boy write me love letters in high school, or now, or literally ever.

Post Ski Trip snuggle

This is just so innocent and cute and wow I want to go on a ski trip with a hot boy and snuggle on the way home. This is rude.

The last letter comes back

This scene is so much cuter after I started reading the book. In the movie, the last letter doesn’t arrive until the end credit scene. In the book, John Ambrose McClaran is Lara Jeans’ the one that got away. The scene in the book where Lara Jean tells Peter who the other letters went to, LJ reveals that she really liked John and that she’s nervous he doesn’t remember her (he moved away before high school). It’s adorable that he makes the appearance in the movie!

Long walks down the lacrosse field

After all is said and done, Peter says I love you, and they get together and romantically walk across the lacrosse field as the camera pans out. If you knew me in high school you know I have a thing for lacrosse players, so this is probably my high school (present day) dream come true. It’s the perfect ending to the perfect movie.

Thanks for reading this stupidly long blog post about a romantic comedy made for 16-year-olds. Noah Centineo, if you’re reading this, marry me? Thanks.