I turned 23 two weeks ago and not much feels different except for one huge thing: I’m unemployed. Well technically as I’m writing this, I’m still employed. But when you’re reading this I will officially be unemployed, my first week of unemployment actually. If you read this blog, you already know this. And I just want to say THANK YOU!
Thank you to everyone who DMed or texted me after I posted last weeks blog. It felt so good to know I wasn’t the only one feeling like this postgrad, and I’m so so so happy you guys felt comfortable enough to share how you were feeling. Makes writing these blogs worth it.
Okay sap over, now back to your regularly scheduled programming.
I quit my job and I have no clue what I’m supposed to do with the rest of my life.
I’ve been working for the same company for the past 3 years. It was on and off while I was in school, but then I was full time 9-5 salaried employee once I graduated. If you have ever met me in person and asked me if I liked my job, I’ve always been completely honest: I didn’t like it. There are a few things I liked and will very much miss, the people notably, but for the most part I very much disliked it. It wasn’t where I wanted my marketing career to go, and I wasn’t doing anything that I felt connected to. I was so indifferent towards what I was doing and it had been affecting the quality of my work for a lot longer than I’d like to admit. I was big time mailing it in and as much as I usually do bullshit my entire being, this was the most I’ve ever bullshitted something.
I’ve been applying to new jobs for the past 6 months and nothing has been hitting, and it’s been making me rethink my entire careers path. IT’S FINE. I finally broke and after consuming about 24 hours worth of Gary Vee content, I decided to rip the band-aid off and just put in my notice.
I’m 23 years old. I don’t have to pay rent, the only bills I absolutely have to pay are my phone bill and my student loans – which I can still technically defer (I think??). I don’t have children, I don’t have a boyfriend or husband to pay for. I’m #Blessed to be able to even THINK about doing this. But at the end of the day I’m taking broke for a summer over unhappy and miserable with money. Ask me about this again when I’m burnt to a crisp and have no money left…
Since I’ve quit everyone keeps asking me what’s next. I don’t know. I have no clue. I wish I had a clue. I told my coworker that the first thing I’m going to do in my unemployment is read all the books sitting on my bookshelf that I haven’t had time to read. I’m going to deep clean my room and purge my closet. I’m going to write more and work on my art again. As far as my career goes? No fucking clue.
I’ve never been a big risk taker. I’ve always been someone who plays by the rules and is safe. Like press the walk button before crossing the street and never driving in the fast lane on the highway type safe. Wow I sound like a fucking nerd, I blame my dad for my insane safety issues.. They’re good things though, thanks, Dad.
This is easily the scariest thing I’ve done, and while I’m truly a little terrified I’m also wildly excited.
I’m excited to lay by my pool and read a bunch of books. To research marketing jobs and try to find the perfect job for me. To build up my blog and my content here. To just sit and do things I never had time to do because the second I got home from work I decided to just go to bed. Maybe I’ll paint again, or get back into my typography. Or maybe I’ll find a new hobby!
Anyways, I hope some of you read this and said “fuck that, I’m quitting too!!” and I hope others read this and realize how much they love their job and are truly truly happy with where they are at in their career. But for the people that are recently graduated, or even not so recently graduated, that don’t know what to do with their lives, you’re not alone bitches. Wanna have a pool party and apply for jobs all day? I think I’m gunna make that a Facebook event. My wifi goes into my backyard so this could absolutely work, stay tuned folks.
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