We’ve officially been in the damn thing for 6 weeks, with no end in sight. At least no end in sight for us Massachusetts residents. Let me tell you, it’s really hitting me hard this week. Even though this week started today, but let me tell you, I’m fucking over it.
The no end in sight thing is really just getting to me. I’m very much an extrovert and really just thrive on hanging out with people. I simply do not do well just texting and Facetiming people. I don’t open up, I’m not as attached to it, I just honestly don’t care about it as much. But get me in a room with people and I’m in my element. This applies to both friends and my dating life (or lack there of). Not being able to hang out with people makes me so fucking bored I want to shove my head into a wall.
Everything happening dating-wise right now just feels like a giant waste of time because I just cannot get to know someone, or have someone get to know me virtually. If you know me, or you’ve read my blogs before, you know I fucking love attention, so I love that aspect, but then I get incredibly bored and start overthinking, and think what’s even the point? I can’t hang out with anyone for several more weeks, maybe months. The attention doesn’t even fuel me anymore! Who am I and what happened to the real Sarah?
I’m a big “swipe through Bumble when I’m bored” type of gal, but even that doesn’t scratch the itch the way it used to because there’s just no potential for anything. Even with someone I want to talk to or have a connection with, I can’t hang out with them, and I can’t meet new people so what is the god damn point. And there’s nothing to talk about other than what Netflix show you’re bingeing. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw writing her column, “is it worth looking for love if you know you can’t have it?” Not that I’m looking for LOVE right now, but you get the point.
This also has the added detriment of not giving me fucking blog content! How am I supposed to write Celibate and the Suburbs if I’m not even trying to talk to guys!? That’s no fun! The fun of Celibate and the Suburbs is making fun of the shit guys do during the courting process, and I just don’t have the mental capacity to go through that right now…
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